You single-handedly lay and stack each strand
of the haystack.
I burn these allergens down one by one.
You wave the needle in my face
like an escape hatch,
burn through your accusations one by one-
You say, “What haystack?
Irrelevant haystack. Too nit-
picky.”
You say, “Too literal. To confrontational.
This is why I don’t talk to you.
Talk to me!
Crazy.”
Alphabet Ravine 
Gaslighting’s final refuge is to sling that accusation of insanity against the victim of the attack. I’ve done it. I wrote something a few years back that progressed to the truth I needed to see about myself and my tactic used in domestic arguing/terrorizing. I will look for it and share it with you, my friend.
Peace,
g
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Here it is.
“CRAZY”
Like an ill wish or a curse hurled,
The name is growled through clenched teeth,
“Crazy”, I say it.
Like sour breath it hangs in the air,
Immediate regret,
It’s my only defense,
The name fits a desperation,
like a fish hook it pierces and holds,
Then restricts any hopes
Or life,
The name suffocates
And strangles.
I know,
My name has been “Crazy”,
When I was so angry and so frustrated
With the walking dead,
Friends lost to false senses,
Slinging invective,
At ease with violence.
I find myself
Crazy for trying,
Crazy for crying,
Crazy for loving you,
Frustrated from all of this
Effort and
From feeling isolation and
Self-doubt.
I know how
To dismiss with this label,
To quietly admit defeat inward and
To publicly defeat another outward,
To sling the fishhook,
To sting with poison.
She’s crazy.
Not me.
G.M. Goodwin
5 July 2015
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Thanks so much for sharing, George! I love this. Coming to our own truths is always so brave, and writing is so wonderful for it.
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Both writing and reading inspire truths for me, my friend. I find it regenerative to be able to empathize. Thank you for being an inspiration.
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💜 Awesome 👌🏾 👏🏾 👍🏾 😍 💖 😎 👌🏾
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Thank you!
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Thanks, Chuck!
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Please get away from this person.
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Thanks! I’m only in safe, healthy relationships, but otherwise I’d definitely take you up on that advice! 🙂
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